My Resignation

I really love my job. I've learn lotsa things here. But I have decided to resign from my current position because I got better offer. It is not that I'm bein greedy, but I would like to grab this opportunity. It is once in a lifetime rite? Furthermore, it is good for me. I mean for the long-term benefits and career goals.

I am supposed to give one month notice in advance, but I do not have enough time to do so. I am only able to give two weeks notice to my boss and within this two weeks, I am so busy looking for suitable candicate to replace my position. Lotsa candidate applying for this position, but I really interested with this lady named Eliza. When I saw her resume I was like.... Is it real?? What the heck is that?? Do you know what? We got the same name. 

What a coincidence rite? Haha.. To make it short, we found out that this girl is qualified enough to replace me. Her education background, working experience and everything was okay. We decided to arrange an interview for her today at 09:00 am. As expected, she passes the interview and commencing her duty next Monday.

My colleague said to me,  "Waa..you're so lucky. You both got the same name and you both look pretty,". I give big smile for her when she told me that. Then I said to her, "Naa...now you admit it already la? People named Eliza is not only pretty, but we're smart and capable of handling any job. We're brilliant.".

Hihi...that's sound like masuk bakul angkat sendiri right? Just kidding. I just want to cheer a somewhat gloomy in the office after they found out I will quit my job. It is not easy for me to make this decision...but for the long term benefits and career goals, I think this is the best for me.

I have an important task this coming Monday. My boss request me to recruit my successor. She must learn how to handle my job and everything within one day training. It's crucial for her to able to learn fast because it is not an easy task. Whether she can make it or not, it depend on herself. I have no choices. Hopefully she can catch it up because I will no longer working here after raya holiday.

I have grown in many ways working with this company. I feel grateful for the opportunities, guidance and support that had been given by Deterich for me all this time. It's been a great experiences for me working with you all.

Last but not least, I wish the best of luck in future to all Deterich Sdn Bhd staffs and members.


Thanks & Regards,
E.Sherance

Have You Ever Felt This?

Sometimes in our life, we unfairly treated by others. We feel oppressed and neglected. We have tried our best, we give all out but the retaliation that we receive are not commensurate with our hard work. In career, in life and even in a relationship....

Have you ever felt that you are just an option for somebody even though for you that 'somebody' is your priority? You tend to think about that 'somebody' first in everything you do but he didn't. Sorry to say this. But, hey... Its look pathetic okay. Why should you? Why do you need to lower yourself to that extent for that 'somebody'?

Wake up.... Do not enslave yourself and allow others to demeaning you. You are PRECIOUS regardless of our origins, believes or background. We are all the same.

If you are not the priority in someone's else heart, do not let them be priority in yours. Because in the end, you will get nothing but regret and broken heart. IT IS NOT WORTH IT! If that 'somebody' doesn't know how appreciate you, go ANGKAT KAKI la.

You are just wasting your precious time waiting for someone useless like that. Believe me, one day they will regret and realize that you're someone that they shouldn't lose for.

Enough said.

Sharing of my sadness

I feel depressed this few days. I feel down. Sadness had merged into my body and soul make me feel suffocate in this feeling. Most of time we thought that 'outsider' could hurt our feeling but we tend to forgot that closest people around us could hurt us the most.

I am not saying that I am perfect. But I always do good to others. I always refraining myself not to hurt people with harsh words or action eventhough I truly upset with their attitude towards me. Most of the time, I just silence and showing my fake smile while my heart burst inside.

Sometimes I felt so alone and nothing makes sense. I feel like I am facing the whole thing myself, with nothing but tears and fake smile. When I am alone in my room, sometime my tears burst without anyone knowing it...

Life is not like a fairytale that we heard during childhood. We are living in a real world, with all kind of human being inside. Some of them may good to you, some might bad, envious, cruel etc. I feel bad when I heard people criticise me behind my back but pretending to be good in front of me. Maybe it is not hurt this much if it is 'outsider' that saying all those bad things about me. But I feel broken, when I know someone who is really close to me did this to me -->> my lovely aunt.

I really love my family including all my relatives and even my friends. If they asking for help, I wouldn't feel hesitate to give my best to help them. I am not saying that I am good but this is what I am.

I still remember three years ago, few weeks before my aunt wedding, I help her a lots. Decorating the church, choosing her wedding gown, prepare this and that, I was like her wedding planner (F.O.C) of course. I never asked anything from her. I am doing it sincerely for her.

Her husband is unemployed but my parents help him to find a job. Now he's working as a offshore rigger with oil and gas company. My parents always taught me to be good with them. When they having problem, we will always try our best to  help them. We give all out.

I don't know what is in her mind. Why she doing this to me? Did she hates me? Why she talking behind me and aggravate my family? What have we done to her to be treated like this? For most, why she insult and slandering me?

Maybe it is mistakes because I am kind-hearted-type? Did I ever do something wrong to her? I don't know. I have no anwser for that. Perhaps this is what we called bagai kacang lupakan kulit?.........

Aunt, have you ever lived my life, have you ever spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do. I'm good but I'm not an angel. I do sin but I'm not the devil. I just being myself. Pls don't asked me to be hypocrite just to please you. That is so not me...

Dear my lovely aunt, I have something to tell you. If you ever read this blog, I hope you would understand how I feel. No worries, I won't curse you anyway. As a christian, it would be better if I pray for you and asked God to open your heart to me. May God Bless you and your family.

Sincerely, 

Your niece